The year is almost over and part of me feels like I’ve done nothing with myself while another part of me realizes I am in a different place than I was last year. It’s that constant feeling of “not good enough” and “you’re doing ok, keep going!” that have me feeling in the dumps today. After being told bluntly to the face I was not considered to be a part of something because of my economic standing I was really hurt. On top of that, the fact that I haven’t been producing enough work adds salt to the wound. I’ll be alright and there will be other chances. No point staying grouchy or sad about it. It’s just money. There are more important things in life.